No Expectations (An unplanned continuation of the “Life Without Running” Blog)

I published the Life Without Running Blog before my birthday so I was sure to have it sent to Stacie in time for her birthday. That was supposed to be the end of it but the universe apparently had other plans. I tried to start a new blog called “No Expectations” and even have it posted but I can’t do anything with it and every time I tried over three days and about ten hours the posts for this blog would appear and if I went to new blog and tried to set it up it kept saying the website name was unavailable. I went so far as to try to register it with the same title but other web names it always said unavailable. I’m done, the stress was kicking my ass so I just decided to piggyback on this blog and if I write long enough to want to publish again I can just set up the blog book to start with this post. It’s pathetic how technologically illiterate I continue to be even when I try to do better. Okay, there’s the explanation, so moving on…

I’ve spent the last week highly symptomatic and it has been very disappointing because I had a treatment on July 20th. Today is the 29th and I can actually say that I’m starting to feel like maybe the treatment is making a difference. Fingers crossed. 

It’s Saturday and on Thursday Smitty and Denise invited me to go to music in the park in Cottage Grove that evening. I had to beg off because I really wasn’t feeling well (the 4th day in a row, continuous). On their way they stopped by and brought me a pre-Birthday dinner. They’re good people and good friends. 




We had another of those twisters go through part of our yard this week it was only the second one since I’ve lived here but it was obvious. First noticed it with my awning and I was really glad it didn’t cause damage because it was strong. It picked up the trash and recycling bins and through stuff everywhere. 




I’ve had a few days since I started this post to think about how to explain “No Expectations” and what I mean when I say it these days. These last several years since my diagnosis and subsequently starting treatment I have tried to continue traveling and “racing” and have been able to do both with various amounts of success. I still “HOPE” to travel and “TRY” to do some races but with the way I have been feeling and the fact that my oncologist has some concerns regarding the effectiveness of my treatments moving forward I know that I need to take things one day at a time even more than what has become my new normal. So that’s why “No Expectations” moving forward. So let’s see where the rest of this journey called life goes!

For the first time in many years my birthday meal didn’t include Mexican food the reason being that Donna took Brandy and I for Mexican on the 30th and then Brandy took us to BJ’s for my actual birthday. The food was very good and I stayed with the Mexican theme by having a flight of margaritas.





I had really good fried chicken and to finish off the celebration the brought a caramel pizookie. I ate to much and suffered the rest of the day. 






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